I love my truck
Once again:
It’s not the years, it’s the miles.
Once again:
It’s not the years, it’s the miles.
For many years I have had uncanny luck with vehicles. Through benign neglect things that seem to be not quite right have healed themselves and I continue on my way mostly unimpeded by unfortunate incidents of the vehicular kind. I usually get around to fixing things at some point but I drag my feet and put it off until it seems sure to be catastrophic if I don’t. So it was when I approached the camper with the same semi-nonchalance.
Campers and trailers are notorious for wiring and electrical problems. And here I am facing my own special version. It seemed intermittent and I expected it would heal itself the way so many other things have done over the years, but, alas, no. GFI outlets tripped, battery fuses blew, and more than a few sparks and puffs of black smoke flew. Yes, these things concern me somewhere in the rational part of mind (which lurks way in the back at times) but with a little wiggling of wires and some swearing (my specialty when it comes to fixing things) it worked each time.
And then it didn’t.
A few phone calls, some rewiring (who makes the white wire positive?!), more swearing, a new GFI outlet, a junction box in the deepest bowels of the camper torn apart to no avail, and nothing. Still no obvious answer to why the plug was throwing circuits left and right.
The junction box, behind the drain, under the drawer, above the heater.
While I had cooking gear strewn all over the camper, my arms (which some may remember are freakishly long) wound into the camper cabinet, around the sink drain, over the heater, and through the drawer to reassemble the perfectly good junction box, I struggled to screw the outlet back into its protective box. Sitting on the floor between the reluctant cat, the snowshoes, and a crate of food I thought, “What have I done?!”
The good news is since I can’t plug in anywhere the chance of an electrical fire due to bad wiring is nil. The bad news is that I plan to drive across Canada without the certainty of auxiliary battery power sufficient to keep the heater fan going long enough to keep me toasty on cold winter nights.
I am now chasing an elusive connection across the continent. I will stop in the next major destination to see if they can help me work it out. And if there is no answer there, I will continue along my way to the next stop with the hope of finding someone who can fix this problem.
One of the last times I drove across Canada in the winter (as I seem to do) I was in my old Tercel. I left New Hampshire with auntie and uncle giving me a push out the driveway – literally, as we pushed the car and pop-started it. For this reason alone, I may never own an automatic. After a stop in Vermont where my sister fed me delicious homemade chiles relleños on a snowy, deep-winter night, she also helped me push the car to pop it into life the next morning.
Gas stations, the border crossing, more gas stations, I pop started the car each time. Almost 500 miles later, I stopped in Petawawa, Ontario, to visit a friend and do a little snowshoeing in Algonquin Provincial Park. The morning I planned to leave, I found my car frozen to the ground in the hotel parking lot, a night of freezing rain locking me in. I asked a trucker to help me rock it, break the tires free, and give me a push so I could pop it.
For those that don’t know, most of Ontario is flat. Hills are few and far between. My luck held; the hotel was at the top of the only hill in town. We broke the car free, pushed it to rolling, and down the hill I went. But this time the attempt failed and soon, I was at the bottom of the only hill in town and the car was not running.
I asked a couple of snowmobilers in the hotel parking lot for help; one happened to be a mechanic. He told me the distributer cap was cracked and showed me how to remove and replace it. I went back to the hotel, borrowed a phone book (remember those?), and the phone (pre-cell phone ubiquity), and called half a dozen auto parts stores in town. Finally one shop had the part and would deliver it. For free. To my car.
While I waited, at least a dozen people stopped to ask if I needed help. It seemed almost unreasonable to have so many people inquiring after my wellbeing on the side of the road. The part arrived, I installed it and still the car would not start. Another person stopped; after hearing my story of rolling, popping, installing, but not starting he thought I had flooded it and told me a trick to reset the starter. The car fired up. Just like that.
During another phone call to the camper manufacturer I’m told that it’s normal for the plug to spark when plugging in. Oh, and it will trip a GFCI outlet every time. Now my task is to find only non-GFCI outlets that are not connected to any other GFCI outlets on the same circuit. Three days, three strikeouts.
Somehow, I know that whatever the electrical issue is, it will be resolved. Maybe I’ll wait until I get to Canada and maybe some nice RV electrical specialist will randomly find me swearing at the camper… or maybe my path will miraculously be lined with only non-GFCI outlets. After all, distributor caps are delivered roadside in some places.
Each year about this time I send a review of the year in photos I’ve taken along the way to people I know and love. It’s my annual Solstice letter without all the words, short and sweet. Below is this year’s installment. I offer this with gratitude for the people I do not yet know and love but who find the energy to spend time with me here. I hope it takes you on roads you have not taken enough this year.
Winter self-portrait
Walla Walla impossible green
Mount Hood through the oaks of Washington
Blue and yellow make green
Desert virga, California
Dragonfly, North Dakota
Full circle, North Dakota
Travelers: Monarch butterfly, tamarisk, and the Cimarron River, Oklahoma
Evening glow, California
Grizzly River bowl, California
Crater Lake morning, Oregon
Fire sunset, Steens Mountain, Oregon
Mars-wanna-be, the Sun, during fire season on planet Earth
Indian Beach, Oregon
Saddle Mountain, Oregon
A few years ago I was sent to Wyoming to watch a red-tailed hawk nest. I spent days walking the sagebrush plains. I wrote the following during my days there.
There are places in the world where wind is an infrequent visitor. It arrives in advance of a storm and fades away as the storm passes. Perhaps it drops in like an old friend for a friendly afternoon tea and then goes merrily on its way. Wyoming is not one of these places.
My job this week is to get a red-tailed hawk used to people. I seem to give a new meaning to the phrase “odd jobs.” So here I sit in the middle of sage country with a lot of wind and few birds zipping by me. The ground squirrels chatter and squeak their alarm calls, diving into their burrows only to pop up again a few minutes later. The red tail comes and goes, truly disinterested in me or my meanderings around the place. An archeological dig is about to happen in this place; an ancient buffalo kill site is what they think is here.
All around me on this spring day is low sagebrush, molded to the ground by wind and cold. Last year’s flower stalks stand bravely against the unrelenting onslaught of moving air. A few grasses are scattered between; they too stand defiant. Mixed into this is the first push of spring flowers, delicate white flox being the most common and the lowest, with purple forget-me-nots and yellow prairie rocket tucked in here and there. There are some shrubby thorny things, the only plants to stand more than a foot or two off the dry, rocky, red-brown earth. In the draws, cottonwoods stand their ground. This time of year there is water; it courses past the old trees immersing their roots and lower trunks, giving them another year.
One tree in particular seems to have begun a new life. The south side of the tree, with tall, long extending branches is dead. The bark is completely peeled away, the trunk underneath bleached white. The north side of the tree has a width of bark still intact and a whole series of branches reaching skyward, buds thrown open to the early spring warmth.
There are boulders strewn about, not lifeless rock but living stories. Many of these look like pillow basalt, the stuff created when hot lava meets cold water, cooling and setting underwater. These boulders are rounded globs of rock with a coating of limestone, like the beginnings of coral or mineral deposits left in a well-used teakettle. Some of them look like giant sheets of bubble wrap, others just random bowling balls left out in the sun. There are other rocks as well, flat slabs stacked and piled, alone and in clusters. These rocks tell no story of their own but they are covered with orange, yellow, white, green, and black lichens. Rings, splatters, and ribbons of color; lives of time.
I found a buffalo horn high up on the ridge to the south yesterday. It is old. Long before man thought of pipelines or highways or windmills it happened there. The keratin is peeling and separating in layers; inside the horn all around the fraying edges are orange lichens, tiny beginnings of a new era. It gives me a small taste of the continuum of this land.
This is not a pristine place. Just to the south, not even out of earshot, is interstate 80. Through a narrow notch in the hills I can see the ceaseless stream of big trucks moving America. To the east, a long stretch of windmills rises from the land. I counted 165 but there is another bank to the northeast, mostly out of sight. Yesterday, this land of wind gave them a reprieve and they stopped moving for a short time. Today, they turn lazily, the wind still not up to its full strength. Running east to west right under where I sit is a pipeline. The scar for this major endeavor is remarkably nondescript, a thin line of grasses with sage encroaching. I believe this pipeline carries natural gas and next to it, is a fiber optic cable presumably for phones. Aside from this scar the only thing marking this pipeline is a series of random posts stating the pipeline’s presence and whom to contact before digging. I wonder if the badgers or ground squirrels ever call.
There’s a two track that follows the pipeline. This too marks the land, but here in the open, two tracks go everywhere. They are as unremarkable and unmarked as the wind.
Still, there is solitude here, a peace or perhaps just a calm that pervades everything. The sage, the birds, and I are waiting. The air will warm again, the sun will dominate, and the wind will be hot and dry. The peace comes from having nothing but the sound of wind in my ears, punctuated by the birds and ground squirrels occasionally. The calm comes from the expanse of ever-patient earth that also seems to be waiting. As if to say about the pipelines and highways and windmills, “This too shall pass.”
I try to think about days long ago when this plain was truly endless, when no roads, towns, or fences had cut it into pieces, when you could ride for days or weeks with only rivers to block your path. My mind is too modern, too confined to the easy path. The stamina and fortitude of the first people here is astounding; the determination of the first white settlers virtually unknown in this time.
I wonder how old some of these sagebrushes are. Their stems gnarled, twisted, and cracked, their branches lying over with the wind. They are a study in the area’s prevailing winds.
The archeologists have been digging and sieving for three days now. They have previously dated hearths here, one to 330 years ago and a second to 1200 years ago. Today they dug up an arrow point that, by its shape, is about 2000 years old. They have found bison and antelope bones with tool marks on them. Apparently elk kills are almost never found.
I’ve found a handful of ticks this last week. Usually at the end of the day, on my way home, I find them crawling on my pants or my sleeve. This morning I found a tick attached to my hip at my underwear line. Ick. It was just getting embedded; I picked it off and flushed it. I’ve had the heeby-jeebies all day. Every minor discomfort, itch, tweak, and twinge becomes a tick burrowing into my flesh. I don’t mind them so much when I pick them off my clothes or easily exposed flesh, like my calves or forearms. When I find them crawling up my neck and into my hair or when they are actually attached anywhere, they gross me out. Seeing them on vegetation at the tip of a branch extending themselves as far as they can reach, stretching, clutching like a small child desperately seeking to be picked up, well that’s just icky. No way around it.
When I was leaving the truck to walk earlier, I was collecting my camera and coat and field book. I looked up to see a big Black Angus bull meandering toward me. I waited in the truck. As I sat and watched he stopped in a spot of open soil, he looked at the truck and started pawing the ground, snorting, and lowing. The dirt went flying up along his back, his tail twitched back and forth. One foot, fling, the other foot, dirt flying. He moved a few feet closer, now about 50 feet away, stepped onto a ground squirrel mound and pawed the earth again, bellowing a challenge to the silver intruder in which I sat. He watched the archeologists, some on this side of the fence, some on the other. He bellowed again and then circled around the back of the pick up and turned northeast along the fence line. I followed, watching him pick through the sage and up into the brush, over the ridge and out of sight, my great wildlife encounter for the day.
The wind has returned to its normal potency today. Walking into it causes my face to stretch and pull away from my teeth. My mouth dries, my clothes adhere to my skin. Trying to stand, I get buffeted, tipped, and thrown off balance; walking with it, I fly. The sun is strong and warm but the wind whisks away that heat with my breath. The ground absorbs the heat and in small quiet pockets, among shrubs or in the depressions the heat lifts from the ground engulfing me with the scent of sage and momentarily making me think long underwear is too much for this day. Looking through my binoculars across the plain I can see heat waves, shimmering, distorting. As if there isn’t enough wind driven motion the heat waves add their efforts.
I’ve been picking up garbage as I walk. The highway is a great provider, Walmart bags, packing slips, shipping manifests, hotel receipts, coffee and soda cups, oil containers, chip bags, sandwich wrappers, beer cans, even a kid’s disk sled. The pipeline contributed dozens of yards of blue, pink, and orange flagging with a smattering of green and yellow thrown in for variety. The wind hurls these things great distances until they finally snag in a shrub or get so tangled in grasses or fencing that they can no longer move. There are always enough plastic bags flung into shrubs to collect the other garbage I find. I have become a high plains bag lady.
This morning as I was walking I found an arrowhead. It was lying in the path, just so. I had cut across a steep sandy bank above the creek and found a fox den. It was the perfect spot, invisible from the ledge above, steep and sliding sand protected it from below. I stopped to look back at it from the bluff to see how the boulders were protruding from the eroding bank and how one of these blocked sight of the den entrance from the other side. As I turned back to the cow path at the top of this bluff the arrowhead leapt into view. It is small but nearly perfect, the brown color of pipestone. I think it is a reward for packing out the garbage, a token of appreciation for just paying attention and for remembering that this was not a dump but that there had been lives here before.
Talk is cheap and it’s time to walk the walk … Yesterday I did an epic 19-hour, 848.9 mile round trip to Canada to buy a pop-up, slide-in, truck camper.
My life just got a whole lot more interesting.
I signed a sale agreement on my house the other day. It should go through by the end of the year. Everything will be sorted, gifted, sold, or stored and the cat and I will be on the road.
Destination: anywhere, everywhere
Duration: unknown
The Road not Taken Enough is about to become my home.
The answer is “yes”. We make everything more complicated.
Every good thing we put out into the universe comes back multi-fold. Every bad thing also comes back multi-fold. The more we worry, stress, and project bad stuff the more it suffocates us. I want less of that and more freedom to do things that matter to me.
People have often accused me of running away but I never thought of it that way. I always thought of it as running to something. Not being able to identify what I was running to didn’t make the destination less valid to me.
By default, moving to something means you have to be moving away from something else. It is the nature of motion, unless you are moving in circles.
That is not my path.