‘Merica

“’Merica. Fuck, yeah. God bless.” Quote (consciously) unattributed

Cynicism and sarcasm toward my country and its future are hard for me to get around these days; sometimes I trip over them in unexpected ways. This was clear recently when two European friends and I spent a month traveling together in the West. We discussed the current state of America – the political climate, gutting national healthcare, the disenfranchised majority, the “love it or leave it” attitude, the obvious homeless populations, and our vast resources.

At some point during our travels, one of my friends, in his extroverted and exuberant way, began saying, “’Merica! Fuck, yeah. God bless.” I was amused, of course. This epitomizes what is both great and not so great about America.

I was also somewhat annoyed by this antic. It was perplexing. Although I’m not patriotic, being an American citizen has brought many advantages for which I am grateful – among them, it allows me to freely write and publish this essay.

I swear a lot. This doesn’t offend me. I often say, “’Merica. Fuck, yeah,” when confronted with egregious Americanisms.

I never say, “God bless.” I don’t believe in a God, as long as people don’t dump their personal responsibility into God’s hands (or their God onto me), hearing it doesn’t concern me.

I think the phrase is overused. I hear it every day within the dysfunctional political system – the shysters peddling watches and bridges. More poignantly, I see it on the signs of homeless people asking for money, “Hungry, homeless, anything will help. God bless.”

I wonder how the most disenfranchised of our population has come to embrace the most privileged and those least apparently concerned with their fates. Is it an appeal to those they know have the most to give? Statistically, the less you have, the more you share. How is it, that in “the greatest country on Earth,” we have a staggering homeless and hungry population in the first place? Is this not a contradiction?

Beliefs

“Theology made no provision for evolution. The biblical authors had missed the most important revelation of all! Could it be that they were not really privy to the thoughts of God?” E. O. Wilson

 

As recently as 2014, 63% of Americans believe with absolute certainty that God exists (Pew Research Center). And, in 2013, only 21% of Americans believed that humans evolved without divine guidance (Huffington Post). Stated in the reverse, this means that 79% (79%!) believe that God created humans.

As an American, this embarrasses me. As a biologist, it frightens me.

 “I tend to believe that religious dogma is a consequence of evolution.” E. O. Wilson

E.O. Wilson is one of the great biologists of our time. (Forgive me, Dr. Wilson, for dragging you into this.) He is an Alabaman, an Eagle Scout, a two-time Pulitzer Prize winner, a New York Times bestselling author, and a forty-year Harvard University professor, now Emeritus. He was raised as a Christian and a Baptist – although, he says, “I drifted away from the church, not definitively agnostic or atheistic, just Baptist and Christian no more.” If he is correct, we can potentially evolve past religious dogma.

False gods.

Stopping for coffee and pastries in a seaside town on the fourth of July, my friend specifically bought a cupcake for the tiny American flag stuck in the top. He waved it at passing vehicles and held it up proudly at every opportunity. I shook my head.

To my knowledge, I have never waved an American flag. I find it odd that Americans are so dedicated to their flag and are so vehement about it as a symbol of our country. Should not deeds be the greater symbol of our strength and unity?

We continued north to a local brewery for a tour. On display was a beer glass –a pint glass the like of which is found in every pub, taproom, and brewery in the country – with the brewery’s name and an American flag printed on the side. Shortly after its release, the Bureau of Alcohol, Tobacco, and Firearms (ATF) confiscated every.last.glass (although apparently, they missed a few). It is illegal to portray the American flag in such (an undignified?) manner. How is it then, that we can wear clothing that puts American flags squarely on American Asses? I asked this but it seemed to offend everyone in the room. Have you noticed that car dealerships have the largest flags? (Be an American. Buy a car.)

Independence day progressed and it came time for the obligatory fireworks. We walked from the campsite along the jetty to the harbor bridge for viewing. Being a dead-end, there was one way onto the jetty and one way off. Both sides of the road were lined with vehicles pointed toward the anticipated display; most people were sitting in their cars with the engines idling. No one seemed concerned that at some point they had to get off the jetty.

My friends were astounded by this display of a quintessentially American way of doing things. It was a recipe for a long night of burning fuel and wasting time. I have long resisted these occasions because I foresee the end result. It is not something I enjoy.

“It’s the American way,” I said.

We continued walking, commenting on the scene. “I can’t believe all these people are just sitting in their cars,” my friend said again. Then, finally acquiescing, “I guess it’s the American way.” With this last statement, we passed a minivan. The passenger side window was down and the dashboard was lined with fireworks awaiting detonation. The man in the seat, cigarette in hand, inches from the fireworks, challenged, “What about America?”

My friend turned, flashed his most beautiful smile, and waved his tiny American flag.

He was rewarded with a thumbs-up.

God bless.

If history and science have taught us anything, it is that passion and desire are not the same as truth. E. O. Wilson

 

Another true story in one sentence

A man named Hooker offered me an electric wench.

Summer blues

Oregon Crater Lake
The summer blues of Crater Lake and Wizard Island

The commercial strip v. the National Monuments – a request for stay of execution

Grand Staircase-Escalante National Monument, Utah
On the executioner’s block: Grand Staircase-Escalante National Monument, Utah

 

It is already true that one can be dropped on any commercial strip in the USA and have no idea where they are. Each is so much the same, so not unique, that Chattanooga and Bakersfield look much the same. We have eradicated the prairies, slaughtered the forests, and filled the wetlands, must we also quash the individuality of the national monuments and make them conform to the ideals of capitalism, consumerism, and corporate expansion? What of calm, contentment, and courage to step outside of the box, to appreciate the subtle realm of time, space, and light that is not under our control? Where will we go for peace when we have used up all that is wild?

You have seen my photos over the last year. Many of those photos were taken in national monuments (including the two on this page). If you enjoyed my meager attempts at conveying the intensity of these landscapes, you will enjoy this (free ebook) photographic journey through the national monuments by exquisite landscape photographers

http://landalmostlost.com/

And, I hope you will send comments in support of retaining the national monuments.

 https://www.regulations.gov/document?D=DOI-2017-0002-0001

Stay the executions.

Cascade-Siskiyou National Monument
Cascade-Siskiyou National Monument

 

Correction

re: Potholes and the Law of Attraction

…although I did spend a lot of last fall in Utah, Joshua Tree is, and always has been, in California.

Please forgive my geographic blunder.

 

Potholes and the Law of Attraction

Tom

It’s spring in Ashland, Oregon. Winter in the west has been long, cold, and snowy. Most people are over it.

Walking through town yesterday, I stopped to enjoy the magnolia blossoms that are about to explode. They have escaped their protective bracts, but are uncertain about fully opening to the tepid sun. A massive camellia tree stands next to the magnolia. Camellia flowers are a color never seen anywhere else, red and pink and raspberry, but none of these.

As I stood admiring the tree, a man walked up next to me and commented on the flowers. I responded, “They’re beautiful.” He impulsively reached over, snapped one off, and handed it to me.

He asked my name and told me his, Tom. We walked away from the trees and back toward town. He began speaking, jumping directly into his life – how it is and what was happening in it.

Tom has lived in Ashland for eight years. He works for a restaurant in town as a dishwasher. He said every year the work gets harder and the owner gets meaner. The owner, he said, has been good to him, but, “I’m 51 now, I’m not getting any younger.”

I am 51. It’s hard to say if we look the same age. Maybe we feel different ages. It’s not the years; it’s the miles.

His hands are hard, especially for someone who has them in water all the time. His nails are short but torn, and there is eternally embedded dirt around the cuticles and in the creases of the knuckles. His laugh is rough, maybe a smoker, but it is genuine. He was wearing a heavy army surplus style jacket with several hooded sweatshirts underneath. Each hood was neatly stacked inside the next above the collar of the jacket.

Tom is applying for a construction job, an annex to the art building on the Southern Oregon University campus. It pays $28 an hour. If he could get that, he said, he would be doing well.

We stopped in front of a restaurant window. Patrons were sitting at the counter in the window, looking out to the street, looking at Tom and me.

He pulled a smartphone out of his pocket to show me a photo of the sign announcing the construction and the new building. He zoomed in so I could see the artist’s rendition of the building on the sign.

“This is what they’re building. $28 an hour. They’re supposed to start work this summer and be finished next year.”

We both looked at the photo. The corner of the phone was shattered and the glass spider-webbed. There was no indication it was attached to any sort of cell service – no bars, no service provider name in the corner.

We continued walking. Tom went on to say he couldn’t live on what he was getting paid. He wanted a wife, a girlfriend – not simultaneously. He wanted a place to live. He had lived in the restaurant for a while, he said. It was difficult to determine if he meant that was his current address.

potholes

Potholes

A few weeks ago, a friend was telling me that he had just learned about the Law of Attraction, that if you are thinking about something or someone, they suddenly appear. It may be a person you haven’t seen in a long time or something you’ve never seen before.

Last fall in California, another friend traveling with me in the camper told me straight up the first day, “I want to see a roadrunner.”

The next day, we were doing yoga poses in the sand of Joshua Tree when a roadrunner hopped up on a rock next to us and leisurely strolled through our practice. Done. One roadrunner delivered.

For me, it’s potholes. I see them. I know they are there. I know they will eat my tires and the rims that hold them. And I still hit them. Repeatedly. I have to consciously think, “look away!” in order to avoid them.

I’ve been vacillating a lot the last weeks. My housesitting gig ended early. I am looking for meaningful work and a place to settle. I love the camper but am ready to stay in one place again, to venture out as often as I can without dragging the cat along – especially after our zigging and zagging mishap last week. He is still traumatized.

I’ve applied for a number of jobs. I’ve had a few interviews. The ones I most want don’t seem to want me. The ones I don’t want seem to be prolific. The wages are too low to actually pay rent in the towns where I am looking.

It occurred to me yesterday that I am looking at the potholes too intently. I am only seeing the things I don’t want.

Last night I dreamed about my truck. I was driving when suddenly the truck was tipping over the edge of a cliff or a steep slope or, obviously, a giant pothole. As the angle of the truck increased, I was no longer driving but, rather, watching from outside the vehicle, from across the expanse of the pothole.

Tom and I worked our way up the street. If he could get this construction job, he said, he could turn things around.

“A few weeks ago, I did something I shouldn’t have.” We stood at the corner, waiting for the light to change. “Without going into the details, I overdosed.” He didn’t say how or on what or how he survived. It was a matter of fact. There was no plea for sympathy or expectation of understanding.

“It’s hard but I’m trying.” We crossed the street. I went one way; he went the other.

The Law of Attraction

In my comfortable, chosen state of unemployment, I have attracted an amazing array of experiences and relationships. I have found beauty, compassion, love, and forgiveness. I found nothing but open, generous people.

As I attempt to find meaningful work, an income, and a place to call home, these things continue to support me. I am not living in a restaurant where I am underpaid. I have never overdosed. I have enough.

Yet, here, now, after all this, I am looking for the potholes. I do this when I am not grounded or am uncertain about my life in general. I would like to say it’s subconscious, even unconscious. But, I know what I don’t want. These things are clear to me. And, I am headed straight for them, the potholes of life. After 51 years, I am not focusing on the abundance of my life, rather, I am still telling myself, “Look away!”

In the larger scheme of the current world, the potholes are becoming big enough to eat a nation. Collectively, we need to look where we want to go. We did something we shouldn’t have. It’s hard, but we have to keep trying.

Portfolios – The Road not Taken Enough

You may have noticed that I recently added several portfolios to my blog (or not, since I didn’t tell anyone…). The links hang out in the left-side menu. Most of the photos I posted on this blog found their way into at least one of the portfolios.

I hope you’ll take another trip through them.

I also set up an Etsy page to sell handmade cards and prints. The cards are 5″ x 7″ (12.7 x 17.8 cm), come with a matching envelope, are blank inside, and have a signed 4″ x 6″ (10.2 x 15.3cm) photo mounted on the front. The 80# cardstock is white. The photo title and location are handwritten on the back of each card. They come in a clear cellulose (biodegradable, non-cellophane) sleeve. They are made to order and can ship anywhere.

Photos included in this post and the Sale Portfolio are hyperlinked to the appropriate Etsy page.

Any other photo from The Road not Taken Enough portfolios may be special-ordered as a card or a paper/metal print. I am currently only able to accept orders through Etsy. Please contact me there for sizes and prices.

https://www.etsy.com/shop/RoadNotTakenEnough

The Road not Taken Enough leads to some amazing places. I hope you are enjoying the ride.

Colorado, Dinosaur National Monument
A spring snowstorm leaves a mature cottonwood gallery with a delicate coating.
Colorado, Dinosaur National Monument
A mature cottonwood gallery is dwarfed by the western Colorado landscape.
Succor Creek Natural Area, Oregon, eastern Oregon
Feeding on sego lilies, a bee collects and spreads pollen among other flowers.
Oregon, central Oregon, John Day Fossil Beds, National Monument
The last spot of winter sun illuminates Sutton Mountain as seen from across the red, green, and ochre Painted Hills.
Steens Mountain, Oregon, BLM, eastern Oregon, French Glen
Intense paintbrush colors stand in stark contrast to the sage and gray of surrounding shrubs.
Mt. Baker, Mount Baker, Washington
Fern fronds unfurl in the surreal green of a Pacific Northwest spring.
Oregon, Abert Rim, Lakeview, Summer Lake, Lake County
A windless day creates a mirror image of summer clouds in a desert alkali playa, Abert Lake, in central Oregon.
Oregon, Wallowa Mountains, Joseph
Full of snowmelt and spring rain, the Imnaha River squeezes through Blue Hole.
Utah, Moab, BLM
A pastel sky above and golden buttes below, the 2016 super moon sets over Utah.
Colorado, Oenothera
Pure white petals glow in the morning light before fading for the day.
Bottineau, North Dakota, Pelican Lake
Evening reflections of summer reeds create semi- and full circles in the still evening light.
Montana
A blue visits locoweed.
Terrebonne, Smith Rock, central Oregon, rock climbing
A hot air balloon unsuccessfully attempts to blend in with Smith Rock.
North Dakota, Bottineau, Pelican Lake
Summer sun glints off of a dragonfly’s wings as it alights on the tip of a reed.
Oregon, Union, La Grande, eastern Oregon
Clouds, a dusting of snow and the subtle colors of sagebrush desert create a winter landscape.
Utah, fall, fall color, redrock
Fall foliage adds color to red rock country.
Royal National Park, New South Wales
White and mauve rock and black charred branches stand in stark color contrast to the deep blue of the Southern Ocean
Zimbabwe, Africa
Dik dik
Zimbabwe, Africa
Stripes and swishes.
Zimbabwe, Africa
Through the shadows and vegetation, Victoria Falls’ mist creates a rainbow.
Chobe River, Botswana, Africa
An African elephant cow and her calf make their way to water along the Chobe River.
Chobe River, Botswana, Africa
Enjoying a sunny afternoon nap.
Magkadigkadi Salt Pans, Botswana, Africa
A Cape crow enjoys first light across the Magkadigkadi salt pans.
Moremi National Park, Botswana, Africa
Winter plain.
Moremi National Park, Botswana, Africa
I knows you loves me, Baby.
Moremi National Park, Botswana, Africa
Zebra belly. Nap face.
Moremi National Park, Botswana, Africa
Morning light makes a lioness glow as she poses for her portrait.
Africa, Moremi National Park, Botswana
Ruminating over dinner, an old Cape buffalo bull peers through the sage.
Leopard, Africa, Botswana, Moremi National Park
If cats had emotions similar to humans, this would be disdain.
leopard, Botswana, Africa
The key to maintaining superiority is proper grooming.
Moremi National Park, Botswana, Africa
Grasses can’t hide the intensity of a leopard’s gaze.
Africa, elephant, family
Single file, the young between the older cows, elephants walk to their nighttime hang out.
lioness, Africa, Moremi National Park, Botswana
A lioness pauses from drinking at the water hole after a zebra dinner.
African elephant, calf, Africa
Shielding her calf, an elephant in Moremi National Park, Botswana, veers away from the lioness drinking at the waterhole.
African elephant, Africa
Giant grasses or small elephant?
trees, hanging on, undercut, undermined
Hanging on by its toenails, a tree bridges the gap of sand washed out by Pacific storms.

News flash…

re: Three landscapes and a soaking shed

…I can’t count.

Or I changed my mind.

Possibly both.

Oh, my.

 

Winter Water – snow and ice taking new forms

The only constant is change. Snow turns to ice; ice turns to water; water turns to rivers; rivers become oceans. And eventually, it comes back to land to start the cycle again.

Deschutes River, Tumalo State Park
Building crystals, Deschutes River, Tumalo State Park
Deschutes River, Tumalo State Park
Juniper droplet
Deschutes River, Tumalo State Park
Calm in the rush
End of the trail, Deschutes River
Deschutes River, Tumalo State Park